Reasons why I love him

Someday, in mid July 2009, my boyfriend asked me the reason why I love him. I was surprised by his question and not able to think of any clever reasons just to satisfy him. In fact, I cant think of any reasons, why I love him.
There are so many reasons to love someone. His looks, his kindness, his money (?), and all,,,
But that's not MY reason. My reasons is way to simple,,, I love him because he let me be me.
I love him because with him, I can be myself, I can have any friends that I want, I can even be bestfriends with me ex-es, I can go out with everyone I want, I can do anything I like. We have something, that I think most couples around me didn't have. It was trust.
I trust him with all my heart, and vice versa. I let him befriend his ex-es, or any other girl, because I know, I trust him, I trust that he love me so much he can even bear the risk of losing me. I believe, he wont let me down, he wont betrayed me. I believe he will be honest.
And that is the main reason why I love him,
because I have what others don't have. trust.

With him, I don't envy other couples. Rich couples, good looking couples. Because that's the meaning of relationship. If you don't trust your couple around someone else, why should you even be together?

saturday. april 14. 2007
02.59.p.m.

alone at my house, i finally got the time to think
reschedule my plans and my future
all the goals and the dreams

alone at my house, i finally think about my self
my life, my friends and my love
and you

alone, i finally think about you
me, you and us
what else are we looking for?
what else are you looking for?

alone, i can't do anything
it's your call and yours only
i'm always yours, baby...

me : i'm tired, hence i'm doing nothing
him : you're tired thinking of me
me : why should i think of you?
him : because i gave you what you always needed
me : but who are you?
him : i'm just a guy you've met, you just know, but on short notice, i gave you all the
things you've missed
me : again....who the hell are you?
him : i am yours
me : what the f#*k ?!
another me : that's him! the one i've been looking for!
me : who?

answer : i am just a dream.... there will be no one that suited you.... you asked too much!

sometimes you are nothing to yourself
when you're hurt because of what you did
the knife you're pushing are stroking to your own chest

sometimes, love can be very hurting
the pain flows from your heart to your body
the burden push you heavily
it's trully hurting
your mind and your body

sometimes you are trully nothing but loser to yourself
cause all the pain that you felt is the one that you, yourself, has made

i am afraid

i am in love
with passions
with kisses and hugs
with touches and skins
with whispers
i am deeply in love
can't eat
can't sleep
can't think of anything else
i am so much in love
with hurts and tears
with pains
with fears
i think i'm in love
i am afraid

what next to grumble?
a heartache.. a painful heartache that is
it's always begin with attraction
and ended with tears

then am i wrong if i always get scared by attraction
paled by falling in love

cause i know the risk, and it hurts

march of the girls

it's funny how me and my girls have the same problem over and over again
how we always sing the same song at the karaoke, ......out of reach.
and sing even with louder voice when we reach the was i ever loved by you part

if we wasn't, at least let us know!
is it so hard for you, guys,
to say this,"uhh...mhhh....sorry...i think you're nice...but....."

helloooooo, guys, it's just the "but" that we need
an excuse to get over you
an effortless explanation
a reason to leave
a closure as rachel once said to ross

well, now i'm telling you,
we DO need a closure!

we're just hoping you're not too chicken to do one

just an ordinary day until he called me
telling me stories that i've been through before

i hate to know that he's crying
i hate to remember how i cried before

life hurts
love hurts
just enjoy it until time heals everything

shits does happens





dearest my friend...
let it heal...