me : i'm tired, hence i'm doing nothing
him : you're tired thinking of me
me : why should i think of you?
him : because i gave you what you always needed
me : but who are you?
him : i'm just a guy you've met, you just know, but on short notice, i gave you all the
things you've missed
me : again....who the hell are you?
him : i am yours
me : what the f#*k ?!
another me : that's him! the one i've been looking for!
me : who?

answer : i am just a dream.... there will be no one that suited you.... you asked too much!

sometimes you are nothing to yourself
when you're hurt because of what you did
the knife you're pushing are stroking to your own chest

sometimes, love can be very hurting
the pain flows from your heart to your body
the burden push you heavily
it's trully hurting
your mind and your body

sometimes you are trully nothing but loser to yourself
cause all the pain that you felt is the one that you, yourself, has made

i am afraid

i am in love
with passions
with kisses and hugs
with touches and skins
with whispers
i am deeply in love
can't eat
can't sleep
can't think of anything else
i am so much in love
with hurts and tears
with pains
with fears
i think i'm in love
i am afraid

what next to grumble?
a heartache.. a painful heartache that is
it's always begin with attraction
and ended with tears

then am i wrong if i always get scared by attraction
paled by falling in love

cause i know the risk, and it hurts

march of the girls

it's funny how me and my girls have the same problem over and over again
how we always sing the same song at the karaoke, ......out of reach.
and sing even with louder voice when we reach the was i ever loved by you part

if we wasn't, at least let us know!
is it so hard for you, guys,
to say this,"uhh...mhhh....sorry...i think you're nice...but....."

helloooooo, guys, it's just the "but" that we need
an excuse to get over you
an effortless explanation
a reason to leave
a closure as rachel once said to ross

well, now i'm telling you,
we DO need a closure!

we're just hoping you're not too chicken to do one

just an ordinary day until he called me
telling me stories that i've been through before

i hate to know that he's crying
i hate to remember how i cried before

life hurts
love hurts
just enjoy it until time heals everything

shits does happens





dearest my friend...
let it heal...

so..?

so far..the worst birthday i've ever had....

no parties, no cakes, that's just so fine with me
no decorations, no balloons, that's just every year for me
no cheek-to-cheek kisses, that's just ok, hey, what do i care?
no achievements, that's just totally fine, i've been there before
no alcohol drinks, that's just a way to avoid hangovers, ha ha
but
no group hugging, no friend-trusting, no free-laughing, no prideless time, no cold-war-free, no problemless-day, no fun-tastic day with ALL of my bestfriends....... that just make it worst.

thanks for teaching me a lesson.
that i don't live for myself






i wrote this not by any means to offend great people that stick (or stuck) with me yesterday...

June 13, 2006
a day after being 24