just an ordinary day until he called me
telling me stories that i've been through before

i hate to know that he's crying
i hate to remember how i cried before

life hurts
love hurts
just enjoy it until time heals everything

shits does happens





dearest my friend...
let it heal...

so..?

so far..the worst birthday i've ever had....

no parties, no cakes, that's just so fine with me
no decorations, no balloons, that's just every year for me
no cheek-to-cheek kisses, that's just ok, hey, what do i care?
no achievements, that's just totally fine, i've been there before
no alcohol drinks, that's just a way to avoid hangovers, ha ha
but
no group hugging, no friend-trusting, no free-laughing, no prideless time, no cold-war-free, no problemless-day, no fun-tastic day with ALL of my bestfriends....... that just make it worst.

thanks for teaching me a lesson.
that i don't live for myself






i wrote this not by any means to offend great people that stick (or stuck) with me yesterday...

June 13, 2006
a day after being 24